And following after chris, comes moi. I don't often indulge in 'heated' debates but I'll offer an advice.

It seems you're starting to doubt your faith in god and if that is so, you should seek to replenish yourself with in depth knowledge of your religion. Or for that matter, gather in depth knowledge of as many religion as you can find - with an open mind. And for that matter, I doubt a 100 or 1000 post thread will ever relinquish that thirst of yours.

Oh, and good luck, if you believe in luck that is.